Today I am struggling struggling.

Am I the only one you sung that to "Rock Party Anthem"  Okay so maybe I am.  I am struggling with a few things today. There is one though that grates on me and makes me irrationally angry.  I just don't understand it. Writing that last sentence, I am not sure I want to understand  it.  I know I don't if that means I will inherit those qualities.

How do people feel entitled?  What is in them that makes them this way?  I know someone that really has an entitlement disease. I am nothing less than disgusted by it.  It brings me to my boiling point.  If your property is where he can use it, he is going to take it and use it.  He will not ask.  He will not thank you.  He will not even acknowledge that the property is yours.  He will take and use it and not take care of it in any way shape or form.  He is somehow entitled to whatever he wants.  I don't care if it is your pliers.  He will pick them up use them and you will never see them again.  If it is something that benefits him, something he wants he will take it.  He will cut a chain and unlock the boat so he has access to it and use.  No questions.  He is ENTITLED.

I don't understand this behavior.  I don't even like to borrow things.  If I need it, I buy it.  If I can't afford it, I live without it.  I am not owed anything.  Just because something is there doesn't mean that I get to use it.  I am always willing to lend a hand.  I have lent a arm and a leg to said person.  Is this the problem?  Where does this entitlement come from?  It really makes me so mad, I can't think.  I am not sure what to do.

I have to call on God because I need to soften my heart from this anger.  I will never understand how one person can take advantage of another.  I will never understand how a person can take things that aren't theirs.  I don't need to understand it, do I?   I need to take care of the parts that affect me and pray for this person.  I need to step back.  This is a hard thing for me to do.  Martin Luther King said it so well, "Injustice anywhere threatens justice everywhere."

If it isn't yours, don't ask like it is. Always treat other peoples property with the utmost respect.  These are words that I live by.  I think it might be a nicer world if we all did.

Richly Blessed is the best.

Oh how richly blessed am I.  Tomorrow my baby graduates.  My last little girl will walk across the stage and graduate high school and we will will both enter a new phase in our lives.  

I have been raising kids all my adult life.  I have graduated 4 out 5 children, number 5 of 6 will graduate tomorrow.  I haven't cried until now.  Not once have I found this sad and today I am tears.  I still don't really think they are sad tears.  I am so richly blessed.  I have had to go without so much and so have my kids.  They come from a broken home and yet a lot of people don't know that.  They don't know my husband and I aren't the biological parents of all these children.  I am so richly blessed.  I wasn't able to give them the home I wanted to.  I made some poor choices as a young adult.  The love that flows out of this family fills my heart to overflowing.  Brandi's accomplishments are ours.  We cry together, we love together, we have all worked for this together. We aren't separate. We are one.  We have many branches, but we are one.  I wish I could find the words to explain the love I feel.

We created a family where there was none.  So many wished to see us fail.  I have a mother and father-in-law that have never accepted or acknowledged my children in 14 years.  I feel sorry for them.  We drop everything, EVERYTHING when one of our own is in need.  My children take care of me.  This breaks my heart and makes me proud all at the same time.  I wish it was something they didn't have to do or see.  Their strength amazes me.  This is love, undying, unending love.  My husband and I have been able to show them that you can love through anything.  Sometimes, your family is not nourishing.  It is sad. I ache for my husband sometimes because of it.  I cherish my family.

I come from a family of  love, my parents taught me that.  I am so thankful for them.  I am thankful to God for seeing my need.  I am thankful he sent me this wonderful family.   I am so richly blessed.  I don't have much, but I don't need much.  I have my family and it really IS everything.