Wide Open

Have you ever heard a son for the first time and all of the sudden you are taken back to a different place in time?  You can feel those feelings like it was yesterday or that you were right in the middle of the time.  I love when a song can do that.

I heard Luke Bryan’s “Roller Coaster” and I was moved to a time in my past.  I don't really listen to country.  Texas country is better than country though.  You can check out the song here.  I am in love with it now.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AxVKTwAkv1k   His words spoke to my heart just like that time and that man did.  I won't use names, but he was gorgeous.  He was a little rugged but not too rough.  Not like anyone I had ever dated.  Actually it may have just been that I completely opened up.  I took the opportunity to give my soul and all of me.  It ended up being an amazing experience.

Have you ever spent a week wide open?  Have you just opened yourself up to someone else and allowed yourself to do things you would have never done?  I have and I am so grateful.  I watched movies I had gone years avoiding.  He opened my eyes to things that I had never allowed my heart to see.  It was an amazing time in my life that I am so thankful for.  Night time walks to on the beach sitting and talking for hours.  I learned more about myself in that short time.  It makes me smile all over again!

I do have regrets about that time.  I regret that I didn’t tell him what that time really meant to me and what he taught me.  I regret that I do not know if the time meant anything to him, because this time completely changed me from my soul.  I learned to look at things differently.  I learned to see people differently.  I learned not to open my mouth so quickly, because that blanket on his bed that might not look like much to me, may mean the world to him.  I don’t know who made it or where it came from.  I hate that now I can’t remember if his mom or his grandmother made it for him.  I will never forget that blanket.  I will never forget him and I will forever be grateful for that little bit of time that spring that I spent “wide open, upside down beside the ocean.”   I will probably remember it forever.

May you be “wide open”.

Until next time, love like there is no tomorrow <3